loophole

it's those moments on those wet, cold and rainy nights
when you step into the darkness, out of the reach of the street lights.
i sat in silence, with my mind in wonder up on that shed
thinking through all of the years and the things that were never said.
i'm sure my bare feet were freezing, but i didn't know
my spirit had probably reached one of those moments of all time lows.
i looked out over the field, so damp and desolate
and for some reason it pulled me in like a fish to bait.
i jumped down and sunk my toes into the ground
and i crossed the barren field without making a sound.
my sights were set on the unlit stadium light on the opposite side
and my longing to get there got stronger with every single stride.
but while i was consumed in my tunnel vision,
i hit the outfield fence in one grand collision.
i blinked a couple times in frustration
and tried to take another step forward in desperation.
but that fence was still there,
holding me back like it would in a nightmare.
i turned around, looking at the progress i had made
and i watched the reality of the situation fade.
"untouchable, like the distant diamond sky"
and my breath came out as a sigh.
to be so close, yet so far away
with but a lousy fence keeping me at bay.
i pulled my phone out to make a call
because that fence was obviously not going to randomly fall.
i started to walk away in capitulation
and for a moment there was no consolation.
but a few steps later something made me turn around
and as i looked again, my loophole had been found.
across my lips danced a slight grin,
an open gate stood a couple steps from where i had been.
"amazing," was all i could manage to say
and as my mind fully understood, my feet were on their way.
i crossed through the gate into the unknown,
just as the other person answered their phone.
but all my attention was focused on that stadium light
and i walked right up to it without a fence giving me a fight.
i realized that the obstacles were what i needed to overcome
the time has already passed, now the moving of the "fence" needs to be done.
i just need to step back and look at the scene at its whole
instead of the tunnel vision that has been guiding my stroll.
it won't be today, and probably not next,
but i will take whatever solution that is to come unvexed.