If you wait for the perfect conditions you will never get anything done.
If you want something you've never had, you must do something you've never done.
It's not about getting a chance, it's about taking a chance.
You know all those things you've always wanted to do? You should do them.
Do something today that your future self will thank you for.
Nothing worthwhile is ever easy.
Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and think of what could go right.
Sometimes all you need is twenty seconds of insane courage. Literally twenty seconds of just embarresing bravery, and I promise something great will come out of it.
You are too smart to be the only thing standing in your way.
The moment before you're ready to quit is usually the moment right before the miracle happens. Don't Give Up.
yeah. yeah. yeah.
what they forgot to mention:
it's way, WAY easier said than done...
p.s. Has anybody seen any unicorns galavanting around here lately? I am having the hardest time tracking mine...
i don't want this moment to ever end where everything's nothing without you i'd wait here forever just to to see you smile cause it's true, i am nothing without you. through it all i made my mistakes i stumble and fall but i mean these words i want you to know with everything i won't let this go these words are my heart and soul i'll hold onto this moment you know cause i'd bleed my heart out to show that i won't let go.
but this house is on fire we need to go... ...run for your life
i remember when sleep came naturally
dreams were sweater
and life was better.
not since you.
you're my protection yet my discomfort.
where did you come from?
has anybody ever told you all you could be?
i just don't think you realize how amazing you really are.
take it from me,
you're the light guiding me home.
confusion never stops
closing walls and ticking clocks...
...am i part of the cure?
or am i part of the disease?
oh.
i turned in my carolina application.
here's to four months of tortuous waiting.
i can't sleep,
no,
not like i used to
i can't breathe,
in,
and out like i need to
my mind is an ever going circle of thoughts and songs
sometime's i wish it would just shut up so the world could be quiet
well, if you didn't have a bad day...
i had enough bad for both of us.
it all started with the silent snake that decided to hang out right outside my car this morning. yes, a snake, and yes i have an irrational fear of snakes. i didn't even notice it until i was driving away, but it still marked the beginning of what i knew was about to be a day from you know where.
so, i was still shook up about the snake when i arrived at the lovely prison they call high school. naturally, i had to decided on hot green tea as the beverage of choice for the morning, and spilt it all down my leg as i was getting out of the car. in case you are wondering, hot tea + leg = OUCH! I somehow, miraculously, made it to my first period as the late bell rang. My first period class is ap physics online. I had an assignment to do that involved the not so lovely site of webassign. It was a timed see-what-you-know math quiz. I had 90 minutes, knew all the material, and started with confidence. that would mean it was easy, right? WRONG! i spent 30 minutes trying to figure out the notation for pi using webassign's key, another 30 minutes running around the school trying to find a teacher, or anybody, who knew how to use the website, 10 minutes of pure complaining and expressing my frustration, and the final 20 minutes actually answering the questions. no, my grade was not so good (i got a 75... A SEVENTY-FIVE!). i missed 10 questions just because i couldn't figure out the notation for pi! i would have had a 100...on paper...
this whole debacle caused me to completly miss break, and made me late for second period, which naturally means i missed the review for my ap calculus quiz. if only i hadn't spilt the remainder of my not so hot hot tea all over keri...the rest of calculus would have passed fairly uneventful. i still feel really bad...
at lunch, they had ceasar salad. normally this would have been an excellent thing. not today! because of course they were out of ceasar dressing. so i had ceasar salad with italian dressing. oh yeah, and my cheesy bread was burnt. (this wouldn't have been so bad if the rest of the day hadn't already been terrible.)
third period, which is ap world history, started out great. freeman sang us a lovely review rendition of Forget You by cee lo green about early civilization. it was probably the first time i cracked a smile, much less laughed, all day. no worries though, i failed (apparently only by my definition) the test that followed.
i would have been on time for ap biology if i hadn't stayed and talked to freeman about my grade. it doesn't matter, how important can darwin and his stupid galapogos finches be? at least mrs.loweshore didn't give us a quiz or add some other ridiculous assignment to our to-do list.
i was relieved when i got home, that is until i got to the front porch and saw that a spectacular colony of wasps decided to build their nest right in front of the door. the back door was a wonderful second option of entrance into my house.
and just to put the cherry at the top of the giant heep of whatever you want to call it!...
i just murdered an opossum with my car.
...i guess he doesn't have to play dead anymore...
did i mention i probably have a sinus infection as well?
on the bright side: tomorrow has to be better.
and since i dearly despise that whole YOLO (youonlyliveonce) thing...
i will make a bucket list that shall be thoroughly fulfilled by the first day of senior year.
1. sing call me maybe to a random attractive stranger
and of course give him my numberr.
2. go an entire day without shoes
you know, just for the heck of itt.
3. go midnight fishing
apparently i have been missing out?
and everything is hotter when the sun goes down.
4. have a taylor swift moment
one of those "meet me in pouring rain, kiss me on the sidewalk," "you lift my feet off the ground, you spin me around," "dance right there in the middle of the parking lot," "romeo take me somewhere we can be alone," "when we're on the phone and you talk real slow, 'cause it's late and your momma don't know" kind of moments.
5. spend the night on the baseball field
why not?
6. spend a day volunteering
possibly help build a house with habitat for humanityy?!(:
7. play a consistant week-long game of "stop" with somebody
you text somebody the word "stop" and they have to send you a picture of them doing whatever they are doingg, then they randomly send you the word and you have to do the same.
8. pick up trash around the football/soccer field
let's just be honest, it really needs to be done
the stadium is a mess.
9. stay up for 48 hours straight
the longest i've ever stayed up is 36 hours, i want to break my record.
10. hike all the way up pilot mountain
like from the bottom to the top (as if there is another way to hike all the way up?)
11. go swimming fully clothed
not in a swimsuit...just jump in while in everyday attire.
12. tacky day shopping
dress just absolutely tacky and go shopping.
13. starwatching from sunset to sunrise
as in...staying out and watching the stars from the time they come out to the time the sun overpowers them with its light.
14. go to an amusement park
carowinds, six flags, holiday world, etc.
15. go to the zoo
who doesn't like the zoo?
16. be a vegetarian for a week
one week. no meat.
17. read at least three books on the AP English list
because deep down i am a nerd...
and i really want to get credit for the class...
The Democratic National Comittee at The Watergate Hotel
2:30a.m.
Five men are arrested for breaking and entering.
They were later found out to be working to reelect the Republican president, Richard Nixon.
They were men within the national government.
However, in the fall of '72, Nixon was reelected for a second term.
He claimed that he had nothing to do with the break-in and the sabotage incident that would become known as The Watergate Scandal.
After further investigation, congress declared that Nixon was hiding something. They took Nixon to court (a case that is called Nixon v. U.S. that occured in 1974) and gained the right to confiscate White House telephone conversations that Nixon had recorded during his terms in office. Congress listened to the tapes and discovered an 18-minute gap.
While steps were being taken to impeach him, Nixon resigned. Speaker of the House, Gerald Ford, assumed the presidency.
It was very obvious at this point that if Nixon was taken to court, he would be found guilty of obstruction of justice. Ford knew this would be a long, drawn-out process that may be too much more work than it was worth. It would tear the country apart, and not only that, it would cause distrust in the United States. How would other countries look at the U.S. if their very own former leader was being put on trial?
Now, for those of you who are not aware, the prsident has the power to pardon any person/people they so choose.
On the eighth of September in 1974, President Gerald Ford pardoned former President Richard Nixon for "all offenses against the United States which he, Richard Nixon, has committed or
may have committed or taken part in during the period from July (January) 20,
1969 through August 9, 1974."
Ford was not a very popular president to begin with, but any popularity he did have, he lost the day he pardoned Nixon.
However, "our long national nightmare" was finally over.
You can learn a lot from Ford. He may have pardoned Nixon for all the wrong reasons, he may have even been involved with Watergate (I doubt it, but it is possible), who knows. I think he did the right thing.
The conflict had been going on for far too long and Nixon was no longer able to do any more damage to the government. Besides that, the country needed to move on. Justice was out of the picture, it was time to let it go.
By now, you are definitely rolling your eyes at this page and asking yourself, "Why in the world is she giving me this stupid history lesson?"
Here's the thing...
This is life. This story is about as real as it gets.
People do bad things; they hurt other people in ways they probably don't even understand. They steal things, they murder people, they lie, they cheat, they abuse, they abandon.
And yes, sometimes (personally, I believe pretty much all of the time) they need to be brought to justice. (please understand that i strongly believe in justice. there are definitely, without a single hint of a question, people who need to be punished for what they have done. believe me, i stand so strongly next to justice that people have thought me a bit bitter.)
But, (in incredibly rare occasions, and i do mean RARE) sometimes true justice is unattainable, for whatever reason, and transgressions need to be forgiven and gotten rid of; not only for the perpetrator's benefit (heaven knows sin is a terrible thing), but also for the victim's healing. Gerald Ford may have been on to something. Maybe it's not all about the revenge or justice we can attain here on earth, maybe it has so much more to do with letting God take care of it. I mean, someday every single person is going to have to answer to Him for every single action they have ever taken, even me. If Jesus died on the cross and has forgiven me for the terrible things I have done, then why should I not grant that same forgiveness to other people?
This thing has been going on since before the day Iwas born, and quite frankly I am tired of it. I have seen what it has done to everybody around me and I have absolutely no desire whatsoever to end up the way some people have because of it. Justice is not an option, it won't work...we've tried, and I don't want to be bitter because I never let go.
So, here it is:
I, Kayla Seiffert, Daughter of the King of Kings, pursuant to the forgiveness power conferred upon me by Ephesians, Chapter 4, Verses 31 and 32, of the Bible, have granted and by these presents do grant a full, free, and absolute pardon unto he (whose name shall not be revealed) for all offenses against Kayla Seiffert which he, who still may not be named, has comitted, yes definitely comitted, and taken part in during the period from October 16, 1994 through May 5, 2012.
dear little girl,
i have never met anybody in the world quite like him, which is a good and bad thing. you don't know him yet, but you will; and when it happens, your entire world will be turned upside-down. you're going to think he is amazing and smart and funny and perfect. you'll think the world of him and act so immature because he makes the butterflies in your stomach flutter so hard that you feel like passing out every single time he is around. with every day that comes and goes, you're going to fall harder and harder for him until you hit the ground with skinned knees and a broken heart. but every single day, you're going to pick yourself right back up and keep trying. some days he may help just by clearing the stormy sky with one simple smile aimed at you from across the football field or by telling you that you're cool. you're going to think that everything will work itself out over time because you know deep down in your heart that it is meant to be.
but i have to be honest with you, sometimes our hearts can be very good at lying to us. and sometimes we want to believe the lies so bad, that we allow ourselves to dream. those dreams are what get us into trouble. they provide false hope that we hold onto for years and years and years, even when every circumstance is begging for us to let go. you see, by that point, he is going to be the only thing in the world you really want and you're going to feel like you need him. it will be as if you are literally going to die if you don't see him or hear his voice, and you panic any time you think he is even remotely in danger, whether emotionally or physically.
i cannot tell you how many times i have wished i could take back the night the feelings first invaded my heart, but i can tell you it's more often than not here lately. i have come to find out that he is nothing like the guy i thought i knew, because the truth is, i never really knew him. this has a lot to do with the previously mentioned immaturity due to shyness, but even more to do with the fact he thinks i'm some crazy stalker chick. the only thing i have gotten out of any of it, is an emotional rollercoaster whose track is a simple circle. all it does is make you dizzy and want to get off, but you can't because it is going far too fast and there is no end. it goes on and on forever, or until you fall off. either way, it ends badly for you because anyway you play it, you will never be able to find the emergency exit and he will never be yours.
it probably won't help any if i tell you to just pretend he doesn't exist, because fate will play its course and you'll end up falling for him one way or another, so i won't waste my words. just be careful, ohkay? protect your heart and leave your mind open to other possibilities. as they've told me many of times over the years, he is NOT the only fish in the sea. so, go out there and swim around with your little snorkel and find a better little clownfish to call your own. i promise that God made the perfect guy for you, all you have to do is be patient and trust Him. (it also wouldn't hurt if you tried to be a little more normal around guys you like, i hear it really helps your case.)
daughters of jerusalem, i charge you by the gazelles and by the does of the field: do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.
song of solomon 2:7
lovelovelove,
me.
p.s. if you're reading this (you know who you are), i really am sorry for everything. had i known the consequences of my immaturity and my friends' immaturity, i would have stopped as much of it as i could. i know that things will never ever be normal between us, i've given up that hope long ago. i am, however, working on being "normal" around other guys i like. so i guess i can thank you for teaching me how not to approach certain situations. who knows, maybe i really will find another fish in this great big sea our world is, but i do know i will never forget you.
when two girls like the same guy
they get jealous of each other
and the competition begins.
then when the guy plays both of them
they get mad at each other
and the revenge begins.
HELLO!
think about what could get accomplished if the two angry girls teamed up and went after the guy who caused all the problems instead of wasting all their energy glaring and making smart comments at each other!
